Solitary Confinement.

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009 @ 6:25 AM

It's already been a relationship after,

even though I felt nothing but anger.

Yes, nothing else but anger.

No pain, at all.

I wonder why.

But now I don't know if I'm the same again.

I don't feel myself.

Do I?

Well, this new feeling has been popping up.

It isn't love nor hate.

It's more of, love, but not true love.

Well It could be defined as a mother's love,

or maybe something much more mediocre.

I know you still can't forgive,

how much pain I've caused you in the past.

But I'm here to confess.

That I do still love you.

I ain't gonna advance the relationship.

I rather stay as great friends, nonetheless best friends.

Yes, I'm stopping here.

I don't want to feel pain nor letting you feel pain.

I've thought about this many times before I sleep.

And well this pretty much links up to me,

just caring for you, in a love kind of way.

It's complicated, well, more of unexplainable.

This feeling I have towards you,

suddenly changed so much.

So my conclusion is that.

I'm going to stay where I am right now.

Going on with that swear I made also,

And just do what a friend has to do.

Well maybe more of a friend,

but sacrificing much time and patience into,

well, someone worth it, is well?

Worth it?

Good, now my conscience is clear from any aspects that may distract me from my future.

And I can continue smiling and being happy till the time comes.

Well, there may be a time when I have to make a critical selection.

It has happened more than twice in my life now.

And I hope it happens again.

Because I would want to make the right decision,

so that I can be confident in what I do.

Not making any more mistakes that may affect me no more,

but more of, preventing mistakes.

Thinking twice.

;

We live in deeds, not years:

In thoughts, not breaths;

In feelings, not figures on a dial;

We should count time by heart throbs.

He who most lives,

who thinks most,

who feels the noblest,

acts the best.

At times our own light goes out,

and is rekindled by a spark from another person.

Each of us has a cause to think with deep gratitude,

of those who have lighted the flame within us.

Whenever you're in conflict with someone,

there is one factor that can make a difference,

between damaging or deepening your relationship.

That factor is attitude.

Vincent.